Sarah’s cardiac cath went well. Everything looked on the inside about how it presented on the sonogram. The hole joining the left and right sides of the heart was big enough, the doctor thought, to skip the septostomy – or the balloon thingy – for now. He said it was just big enough to get her by for a few days (it has been enough up until now), and the risk was great enough that he’d just a soon skip it.

Now everything feels calm and concluded. Today is finally over, and we are all in for the night. Plans have been made for tomorrow. Sarah and I will fly to Seattle around seven in the morning, but the whole transfer procedure will take most of the day. The doctor has gone home for the night. The day shift nurses have gone home too (the day nurses and night ones have overlapped for the last few hours, so we had a good number of people around her tonight), I have talked with Stephanie a number of times and she is flying to Seattle tomorrow morning as well. Sarah is sleeping.

They have not let me hold her since we left Fairbanks, which is frustrating. Those first few nights after she was born, and we all slept in the same hospital room, Sarah slept nuzzled up to me on the pullout bed they have in hospital rooms. I’m sleeping on that same kind of bed tonight, and wish I could have her here beside me.