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Still Waiting

Since Saturday night, when we were finally in place and settled here in Seattle, we have been told that the full cardiac team would be in Tuesday morning for rounds, and that they would come to us then to talk about Sarah’s condition, answer all of our questions, and share with us the plan for her correction. We have been looking intently toward this moment for the past several days. 

Everything has been building up to this time, and the anticipation has been crushing. We’ve not wanted to walk down the hall, much less leave the building, for fear of missing one of the doctors.  

The doctors didn’t make it to our room today until after noon. When they did arrive, they stood in the hall outside of our room for about three minutes, only telling us that the surgery would be tomorrow (Wednesday), and that the surgeons would be in later to have a real sit-down talk with us, walk us through the procedure, and answer all of our questions. And so we continued to wait, looking up with expectation every time someone entered the room. 

Finally, around three in the afternoon, the social worker who had been working with us on a number of other issues came in to tell us the she ran in to Sarah’s surgeon (whom we have yet to meet) who told her that a more emergent case had come up, and that Sarah’s surgery had been bumped to Thursday. The surgeons weren’t even planning to come talk to us until the next morning (Wednesday). 

We were furious, disappointed, let down, and sad. The emotional buildup that had begun Friday morning had reached a peak today and then left us to fizzle with no resolution. Not even much consolation. 

There was such a sense of urgency on Friday as we were sent by ambulance to the plane, flown to Anchorage where everyone buzzed around Sarah before sending her on by ambulance and Learjet here to Seattle. And we have ridden that wave of adrenaline and urgency for days now, not toward the shore where they waves get bigger before resolving into the beach, but out into the deep water where the wave peters out to nothing, leaving us adrift. 

Or so it sometimes feels. But we are glad to know – as the nurses keep telling us – that Sarah is stable and doing very well, given her condition. She can afford to wait a few days while there are other children is such cardiac distress that they simply cannot wait a day. And so we wait. 

And we are glad to be receiving a continuous stream on electronic and telephone messages telling us that people are out there thinking about us, praying for us, and asking for updates. We appreciate it so much.

Stephanie’s mom, Kathy, arrived Sunday, and her dad, Julius, arrived today. We are glad to have them here to support us and to relieve us from time to time as we stand watch over Sarah. All we can say now is that Sarah continues to do well, and she is on the list for Thursday.

Posted on Tuesday, September 2, 2008 at 08:49PM by Registered CommenterBrian Rozell in | Comments5 Comments

Reader Comments (5)

Brain & Stephanie,
Im sure God is watching over little Sarah. There are prayers all over the country for her. Hope things go as planned for tomorrow and there will be no more anxious waiting. Just the happiness knowing the surgery is over, and everything be better from here
Leaving you with our prayers and thoughts
Loce Mary Lou & Jerry
September 3, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterMary Lou
Thanks for keeping us all posted on what's going on. You guys are all in my thoughts.

September 3, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterLauren
I'll be praying for Sarah, Hang in there.
Love you all so much.
September 3, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterKatelyn Mizell
Stephanie/Brian -

I have not checked your blog in a while - I had NO idea what your baby has been going through. Please know that my prayers are with you and the medical staff caring for her. God bless you and keep you during this troubling time. Love, Diana
September 3, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterDiana
When Keely told me about Sarah, I immediately stopped
what I was doing and sent prayers to both of you,
the medical team performing this miraculous procedure,
and to the rest of your family who is there w/you.
The power of everyone praying will help carry Sarah thru
this experience and on the road to a healthy recovery.
Love, Van and Gloria
September 4, 2008 | Unregistered CommenterGloria Tidrow

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